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An amateur photographer, part-time artist, A true August child.. And yes, i am a leo. ;)
Adores the color apple green, sky blue and choki choki. No silly, choki choki isn't a color..
Here she goes...Here she goes again..~
Oh lord help me.. My MUET h/w isn't done yet.. and the due date is tomorrow..*cries*
I'm so scared!! I don't know what's happening to me lately, but i'm becoming something i'm not! Someone who's not as laid-back as i am before!! Budu..
Well, let's just hope for the best.. eventho i'm not really sure what's the best that could possibly be happening tomorrow.. Sigh
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School is not as exciting as it was before anymore! Nah, the people are great.. but h/ws keeps coming and coming, till i don't have time to chill!!
I have abandoned my drawing pencils/pens and sketch book!!
Plus, with the sudden change of environment, i'd be seriously lying if i say i experienced NO culture shock at all. I DID. And some of the facts are still hurtful to remember.. but what to do lah~ This is a part of life also mah~~ I gotta move on ritee?? :p
*Yea.. maintain that positive-ness throughout this year*
OH!
I MISS CONVENT'S CANTEEN so dearly!! I miss how the aunties will grab ur money as fast as flash would and the next minute, u're ready to get off the line.
In MS, it was slightly different. The uncle's and aunty's are so damn slow, sometimes i gave up on buying anything and ended up starving to death till 1.20pm. Cuz i know there won't be much time left if i stayed too long in the lines..
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GOSH! I just realized that wasn't my style!!
I would usually even stayed back in canteen and got to class 20 min late! (Back in convent lah..)
What the hell is wrong with me!?
Nah, if i were to compare MS and SFC's discipline, strict ka tidak.. i'm THINK SFC lagi strict.. and still i'm afraid to rebel the rules..
Even that day, when 'they' had to ponteng, and i had no choice, i was so bothered by the thoughts of teachers/prefects writing my name down.. or ya-da ya-da.. u get me!?
AM I EVEN NORMAL!?
AM I PMS-ing!???
LOL.. but seriously.
Ughh.. Ok2~
maybe i just need to calm down a bit.. :/
How do you sleep?
Oh dear, Life is so complicated lah!
I need a rest from all this headache AND heart ache.. Sot.
I don't know why but i feel so isolated.. And damn it, my feelings/instincts are seldom wrong!
Is it me and the hormones or was it really just the unfamiliar situations?
Maybe for others, i'm acting too overly childish.. but you see, that is the real me. I never once in my life pretended to be a little girl.. basically maybe it's because i AM a LITTLE girl..
Goodness i miss Eca so mucho! Wanted to meet up with her so badly.. I kinda miss it, having a friend that is so close to you and having to tell personal stories in class.
Daym it..
Evie,Del and Lana too..
Sometimes when i'm sitting alone inside of my all new classroom..
I still can hear our voices back then in Convent. Gossiping.. Laughing.. even wailing.
Wiwin.. She's in another class right now.. Sigh. I bet if she's in the same class as mine, things might be a lil' bit more merrier. :/ Not that i'm not appreciating fedel, of course she's fun to talk with too.. it's just that.. everything is lessen and i'm still not used to it yet.
Oh crap. Merepek ja sa ni.. :'(
I look like a boy oh kan? Hahah! And yes, i cut my hair..AGAIN. But no worries, i know it's ugly, and i am SO insaf now.. Will let it grow long!! :D Gosh, the black dye is fading!!! I need to hide myself if S***** sees me. That discipline obsessed woman!
Eca, contact me once you can kay? Let's go out and take pictures soon~ :)
Random Picture..
Shel, Achong and Azel
a.k.a
Win, fedel and... Azel. (=_=")
I need a rest from all this headache AND heart ache.. Sot.
I don't know why but i feel so isolated.. And damn it, my feelings/instincts are seldom wrong!
Is it me and the hormones or was it really just the unfamiliar situations?
Maybe for others, i'm acting too overly childish.. but you see, that is the real me. I never once in my life pretended to be a little girl.. basically maybe it's because i AM a LITTLE girl..
Goodness i miss Eca so mucho! Wanted to meet up with her so badly.. I kinda miss it, having a friend that is so close to you and having to tell personal stories in class.
Daym it..
Evie,Del and Lana too..
Sometimes when i'm sitting alone inside of my all new classroom..
I still can hear our voices back then in Convent. Gossiping.. Laughing.. even wailing.
Wiwin.. She's in another class right now.. Sigh. I bet if she's in the same class as mine, things might be a lil' bit more merrier. :/ Not that i'm not appreciating fedel, of course she's fun to talk with too.. it's just that.. everything is lessen and i'm still not used to it yet.
Oh crap. Merepek ja sa ni.. :'(
I look like a boy oh kan? Hahah! And yes, i cut my hair..AGAIN. But no worries, i know it's ugly, and i am SO insaf now.. Will let it grow long!! :D Gosh, the black dye is fading!!! I need to hide myself if S***** sees me. That discipline obsessed woman!
Eca, contact me once you can kay? Let's go out and take pictures soon~ :)
Random Picture..
Shel, Achong and Azel
a.k.a
Win, fedel and... Azel. (=_=")
Ying Yang YO?!
Hola Everybody!
Time passed us by like a speeding bullet. I didn't realize how much everything has changed since back then. Talking about 'changing'
She have changed as well. She transformed herself too much till i'm starting to dislike it all. I hate being a hypocrite. But i couldn't lie about the fact that i'm pulling nice faces in front of her.. :/
What would you do if a friend of yours became someone you (or worse, everyone) dislike or uncomfortable to be with? Talk to him/her? Hoping s/he'll realize every mistakes s/he did?
Well what do u know, done it all but i see not even a single thing changed.. But it became worse..
If only there's a way to tell it all to her without getting her hurt..
And yet, i think maybe i've hurt her already.. See how stupid i am??
How the hell do people even last in a long friendship!?
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I am so damn exhausted..
but i still couldn't sleep.
Luckily~
Time passed us by like a speeding bullet. I didn't realize how much everything has changed since back then. Talking about 'changing'
She have changed as well. She transformed herself too much till i'm starting to dislike it all. I hate being a hypocrite. But i couldn't lie about the fact that i'm pulling nice faces in front of her.. :/
What would you do if a friend of yours became someone you (or worse, everyone) dislike or uncomfortable to be with? Talk to him/her? Hoping s/he'll realize every mistakes s/he did?
Well what do u know, done it all but i see not even a single thing changed.. But it became worse..
If only there's a way to tell it all to her without getting her hurt..
And yet, i think maybe i've hurt her already.. See how stupid i am??
How the hell do people even last in a long friendship!?
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I am so damn exhausted..
but i still couldn't sleep.
Luckily~
Bought it last week.. I'm going to watch it over and over and over and over and over again..
(insert any hysterical laughs here)
Anyway, I've changed my blog layout. More simple than before.. :)
And yeay! You guys can leave a comment!! :DD
hahaha!
OMG! So many assignments to do!!
And wth my groups' going to write a report about Maktab's bulan akademik.. We'll have to catch up every latest events on school and interview every winner..
But the good thing is,
I can bring my camera!
(Insert more hysterical laughs)
Ahem.. bah, pandai2 la ni ambil kesempatan bgambar..
hehehh..
Oh god, i really miss those secondary school days.. :'(
The 'i'm so lazy, later-lah i do homework' frase won't work this time.. SIGHH
And the people! Oh i miss the people!!
Evie, lana, eca, del, cassey and all you people lah! Ish!
:p
Suzai is back! :D
Hello readers!OMG!! How long has it been?? I really wanted to shout a BIG SORRY to my dear friends for not updating cuz it's actually the main purpose of this blog.
Life is busy nowadays. I can't seem to go online that often. I only get 20 minutes of the internet -- After intensely catching up my schedule. SIGH
But today is not really that hectic..
Um.. maybe..
Cuz in less than an hour from now, i have to rush to the bookstore.
To me, school is great. New faces every day, new stories and even the new environment. It was a little AWKWARD at first.. I mean, i've been schooling with the same gender ever since i was 7. Now, it felt weird sitting next to a guy in the canteen.. haha.. Actually it's funny.
All is good lah, nothing so alien in that school pun..
AAAAaaaannnddd~~~
I GOT MY L LICENSE!! last week.. hahaha! And i drove to citymall at the same day i got my L license~ My tutor's car lah.. luckily i didn't kill anyone oh..
Sabar vie, ndak lama lagi ah.. hehehehh
Oh, i don't think there'll be pictures this time. I need to do the chores, test me new uniform, get the books, and so forth. Not forgetting HOMEWORKS!!
YES! HOMEWORKS!
Oh dear.. MUET and SEJ is killing me.. MY POOR HEAD!
And thanks for visiting my blog Max! :DD
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OMG. You (online friends) MUST READ THIS...
This is yet another 'mencurahkan isi hati' post.. which i really dislike.. :/
There's this reader (a guy) who e-mailed me two days ago,
"Hey Sotchai, I'm a reader.. i'm not sure why i'm reading this blog of yours but it's obvious people came to your blog to kill time. Leaving aside about your blog, i wanted to ask you, why are there no pictures of you and your friends in the club?? You might wonder why i'm asking this.. I've visited you friends links and stumble upon a few of your friends..
I still remember the post where you've stated that you hated mini-skirt. Covering your legs ya-da ya-da.. And said that you don't like people wearing them. How ironic you're friends with such people.. I've seen their pictures.. they look hot no matter what they wear. You're just jealous you don't have such bodies.
So to make it short, Stop being a hypocryte and start following the fashion around you, it's just a fashion for goodness sake."
HMMMMmm...
I think i know WHO's blog you've visited, WHICH linked you clicked and WHY you wrote this e-mail to me..
Seriously, i can't stop yawning lah reading your letter.. It's sounds so childish and.. nonsensical. You also might wanna check back the post which i remember that I NEVER STATED THAT I HATE PEOPLE WHO WEAR MINI-SKIRT. Budduh.. sudah org ckp 'i don't care if people wanna wear them'..
AND FYI..
I AM NEVER JEALOUS OF PEOPLE WHO WEAR MINI-SKIRT, AND I SO HAVE THE BODY!
lol.. but seriously.. I don't have to wear them and post it just for you to see my body ba budu.. come and see me bah if you berani.. i have S line lagi!.. hahahaha!!
And so what la my friends wear them??!! Suka hati badan dorang lah ba! You faggot.. Doesn't mean i wear them because i have no sense of fashion idiot.. there are lots of fashion in this WORLD which doesn't require SHORT2 stuff! You think we girls cannot live without mini-skirt ka!?? Hahahhahaah~ punyala senang mau counter ni orang..
Pftt..
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moving on..
to evie;
Let's go to an outing soon.. banyak ni mau crita~~!! Rindu suda sma ko punya HYPER-ness.. hahahah! ;P
And i think i want to buy my own books la k? Tell daphne cuz i dont have her number.. :/
Until next time people!
the so called updates. >:-(
I'm not really in the mood for pictures now.. AND I AM SO SAD.So basically, few dayssss ago, went to so many weddings. Well, so many things happened, ANNOYING things.. but to make it short, it's just so bothersome that i couldn't really eat all that food. And who the hell says you can go around the party to cuci mata!? There's no such thing! Maybe there is to some people.. but.. i don't get it.. What KIND of guy attracts me!?? IN REAL LIFE!? stupid suzainie..
So anyway, Kimie just got back from KL and will be staying for a month. Well after so long living far away.. bah, bagus la ba kan?
And finally, what makes me SO SAD kunun is the fact that i'm feeling so left out!...
Ok. So i know i'm not really the person who always says
"Sure i'll meet you there!!"
As soon as you bawa me jalan2..
Cuz my parents are reasonably strict and the idea of me lurking around KK is SO BAD for them. Actually.. it's good la they forbid me. Cuz it keeps me away from most nonsense activities.. (I'm just saying)
That means,
I can't really blame people for not inviting me for their outing.. :(
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But i'm still sad... :'(
At least you 'friends' could've told me that you were going out, even though there's 89% i couldn't come along.. cuz that would AT LEAST made me think;
"Aww, they actually care.."
BUT TOO BAD I FEEL LIKE YOU DIDN'T
cuz i really wanna hang out with you 'FRIENDS'.. :''(
Bukannya i dont want..
Sure.. Go ahead call me childish/immature/or whatever crap you can think of. But i'm serious..
Or am i the type of person who can be easily forgotten off from the list??
Is it my PMS again!?
Well, i'm not really sure to wish it was or not.. cuz i see no difference in it.
Bah..
Go on lah.. have fun. I know you had more FUN without me juga.. that's why you don't even invite me..
OR MAYBE
I really am a nobody..
Paduli la! NOBODY's perfect bah!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!
*laughing to cure all my hidden pain*
**EMO**
:'-(
Saya di tag lagi.. 100 truths.. And i know none is interested pun.. sheesh
What can i say, i'm a tagging victim nowadays. But it's all good.. at least i get to kill time. :DAnd i just finished doing all the chores.. Now i'm still tired from yesterday.. AND, i shall write again sometime today, right after this tagging.. ;)
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Two glasses of milk
2. Last phone call: Danee
3. Last text message: Kimie
4. Last song you listened to: 2NE1 ft Big Bang - Lollipop
5. Last time you cried: Ntah..
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nope
7. Been cheated on: Not yet??
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Neh~
9. Lost someone special: Uhh.. yes?
10. Been depressed: Yup
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope.. never
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Apple Green
13. Sky Blue
14. Pitch Black
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yeah~ :)
16. Fallen out of love: Uhh.. no?
17. Laughed until you cried: YA!!
18. Met someone who changed you: Uhh.. i..don't know?
19. Found out who your true friends were: ... i'm not sure??
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yup.. biarlah, mulut dorang bah :/
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nehh
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: in FB? more than half of it..
23. How many kids do you want?: 3 is the max
24. Do you have any pets: Yes~ and they're my children s
25. Do you want to change your name: No lah..
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Nothing.. but at least it was celebrated
27. What time did you wake up today: 5.00 am couldn't really sleep
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Online
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: The day where i have lots of $$$$$$$$$
30. Last time you saw your Mother: This morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Not telling in public
32. What are you listening to right now : Lollipop
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yup. But it's just his nickname la
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: This boring so called holiday!
35. Most visited webpage: FB,Blogger,Inookani,LJ,CR,
36. Whats your real name: Suzainie
37. Nicknames: Su,Suz,Zai,Suzai,Ninie,Ne,Sotchai,Chai,Titing,Ah ting
38. Relationship Status: Single and kinda loving it. hahaha
39. Zodiac sign: The firece LEO
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Primary School?: Srk St Francis Convent
42. Secondary School?: SM St. Francis Convent
43. High school/college?: Uhm..both?
44. Hair colour: Black, then dark blonde, then brown, then red copper, then black again..
45. Long or short: Short, then long, very long, half way long, and then short
46. Height: 158cm only.. :((((
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Ya la ba..
48: What do you like about yourself?: I'm grateful
49. Piercings: A pair
50. Tattoos: No way, never
51. Righty or lefty: Righty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: -
53. First piercing: 3 years old
54. First best friend: Nurien.. I donno where she is right now.. :/
55. First sport you joined: Swimming.. how ironic
56. First vacation: Pantai ... umm.. i forgot
58. First pair of trainers: 5 years old
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Choki Choki
60. Drinking: Milk
61. I'm about to: Clean Kimie's room.. AGAIN -_-
62. Listening to: Still lollipop~
63. Waiting on: Kimie's return
YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: Yes please.. but i'm scared..
65. Get Married?: I want :)
66. Career?: A rich-famous-dependable-skillfull LAWYER
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: You really wanna ask that!? TALLER
70. Older or Younger: Younger???
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms~~
73. Sensitive or loud: Both
74. Hook-up or relationship: ... hah?
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker?? :0
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Ewh.. no
77. Drank hard liquor: No
78. Lost glasses/contacts: YES
79. Sex on first date: Eee.. NO
80. Broken someone's heart: :'( ya..
82. Been arrested: Umm.. almost?
83. Turned someone down: SIGHHH.. ya
84. Cried when someone died: YA
85. Fallen for a friend?: ... dahulu kala... and surprisingly STILL
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: YES
87. Miracles: Maybe
88. Love at first sight: ...Yes?
89. Heaven: YES
90. Santa Claus: PFTT..no
91. Kiss on the first date: No
92. Angels: Yea
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nehh.. i will never do that ba. ish
95. Did you sing today?: Hmm.. did i?
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Nope, don't want to. Karma is a BAD BAD thing..
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 5 years ago where i can still meet and laugh with him every once in a week :(
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 2nd november.. and so on..
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: ???
100. Posting this as 100 truths: Bah ok.
So effin tired
GAH!My camera's back! couple of days ago~ omg, seriously i felt so excited when udin got back. For the camera of course.. When the camera was finally in my grasp, turned it on, checked everything and i was like..
"WTH!?"
Too much cam whore i tell you.. Sheesh.. Can't believe i let my 'baby' go just like that, and got 'harassed' freakingly!! AHAHAHHAHAHA!! But gotta admit.. some of the pictures caught my attention.. OI, not the people ba! The shots! Ada yg lawa ni.. :D ...
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OMGGGGGG... i am so tired of all those JEMPUTAN KHAWIN thingy! Not that it was annoying.. i mean, it keeps coming and coming and coming.. till i need to shovel those invitation cards away to go to the bathroom.. Nah, just kidding. But it's similar.. almost.
AND, i am so damn exhausted AND full. hoh! So today's and yesterday's story shall be posted in the next post. :D
And while roaming around Wisma just now.. I thought i saw him.. BUT, it seems like he didn't remember me at all... sighhh
OK-aaayyy, now i need to hit the bed and listen to that Demi Lovato song...
I think it matches PERFECTLY.
(AAiishh.. the way he ignores me ba.. sial. But then again.. i'm not really that sure he even saw me)
DOES THIS LOOK LIKE AN 18 YEAR OLD NOW XIAN!???
